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When Hannibal asks Will to come to dinner the night before they're to have their fateful meal with Jack, Will thinks maybe it's one more evening of planning, another few hours for Hannibal to be sure that Will is really ready to do what he says he will in regards to Jack's murder. As usual they talk around each other, neither one admitting anything, touching on things just enough to avoid being untruthful, never really saying anything. But the nothing they say is heavy with intent, and the moves they make are like a game for which neither of them knows the rules.

Hannibal asks about Jack, finally, and the question is framed in such a way that Will can easily deflect rather than answer directly. But even as he says what he does, about Jack's fate being preordained, he thinks that there's a part of him that could do what he's told Hannibal he can, could help Hannibal kill him. He doesn't cherish the idea of murdering Jack, doesn't imagine it will give him the rush of power he felt when he put ten bullets into Garrett Jacob Hobbs, when he nearly shot Clark Ingram in the head, when he broke Randal Tier's neck. But he's started to lose sight of where his reality ends and his deception begins.

Letting Hannibal in, giving him permission (and invitation) to be close, has given Will new insight. There's something in the vulnerability they've shared, even if some of it had been manufactured on Will's part, that makes some part of Will loathe to turn on Hannibal as was his initial design. It's not as if he's forgotten what Hannibal did to him, because he hasn't. But he's starting to understand why, to see the flesh and blood behind a man who is most certainly a monster. Hannibal can be cold and calculating and cruel, but he's passionate as well, he has the ability to be broken hearted, and the capacity for love.

Before he'd brought up Jack, Hannibal had talked about an imago, and the more Will considers it, the more he starts to realize that maybe Hannibal is hinting at something. He has in his mind his ideal for Will, a partner, Will thinks, someone he can share his intellect with, his thoughts, dark and light, someone who can and will understand him. But it makes Will wonder if Hannibal's seen through the cracks of Will's deceit, as fine as they are, if he knows betrayal awaits him when Jack arrives tomorrow night. It makes bile rise in the back of Will's throat, not because he's afraid of what Hannibal will do, but rather because the idea of hurting Hannibal in that way squeezes at his heart in a manner he never thought possible.

Will takes a sip of his wine in an attempt to wash the guilt down, but it sticks in his throat, burns in his sinuses. He can hear the intake of Hannibal's breath, ready to speak, but the words that come out of his mouth aren't what Will expects.

"We could disappear now, tonight," Hannibal suggests, his voice low and honest in a way that Will can feel vibrating in his bones. "Feed your dogs, leave a note for Alana, and never see her or Jack again. Almost polite."

There's a long silence then, spun out between them, and Will's instinct is to deflect again, say something that isn't a no or a yes, just words to fill the space. But, in his heart, all he wants is to agree, to leave all of this behind and run away with Hannibal, for better or worse, whatever that means. Jack would see him as a traitor, a liar, Alana would know it was weakness, giving into Hannibal's designs (because she knows exactly what that feels like), but, besides having to leave his dogs, Will has nothing to lose. He doesn't feel loyalty to the FBI, he doesn't have Jack or Alana's complete trust. He doesn't have Hannibal's either, and there's always a chance that Hannibal will kill him as soon as they get away, but Will suddenly understands that he doesn't care. This life, the one he's been pretending to live these few months, is what he wants. He's never felt more alive, has never understood himself better, than when he's with Hannibal.

"Yes," Will says quietly, his eyes meeting Hannibal's as he nods softly, his gaze clear and unburdened for the first time. "Let's go tonight. I want to," he adds, wanting his intentions to be completely understood, nothing disguised by the veil that usually hung between them.

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Freddie. It had been a calculated risk, going to see her just before he'd gone to Hannibal, but he knew it was the only chance he'd have to speak to her about Abigail, to beg her not to sully the young woman's name in the pursuit of notoriety. There's a chance it won't even make a difference, because Will trusts Freddie's word less than he trusts most things, but he had to try. If he couldn't save Abigail's life, he'd at least try to honor her memory.

"Our increasing intimacy," Will repeats, and he itches to reach over and touch Hannibal at that moment, like an outward acknowledgement of where that had taken them now, the first step toward something extraordinary, something shapeless that was full of unknowns, but that Will wanted desperately. He licks his lips instead.

"It started as a trap," Will admits after a moment of silence, taking the turn onto the dirt road that lead to his farmhouse. "The longer I played the game, the less I was playing. And the intimacy," he says, pausing as he stops the car outside his house and cuts the engine, flips off the headlights, "It was real."

Will knows Hannibal might not believe him, the reality and the deception so closely aligned it's sometimes difficult even for Will to sort one out from the other, but with the car parked now Will can turn in his seat and look at Hannibal, able to meet his eyes. "My motivations changed," he says, his voice low in the silence of the car.

Hannibal believes Will when he says the intimacy was real. It's unclear, however, whether that makes it better or worse. There's a certain comfort in knowing that someone you trusted and cared for never truly cared for you. Yet when someone cares and yet still chooses to betray you, to take your life, your freedom, the wound is so much deeper. Still, Hannibal finds satisfaction in that he did not misread the situation so terribly that wanted to be seen by someone who couldn't care less.

With the car stilled and silenced, Hannibal turns to Will as well, meeting his eyes in the darkness. "Your motivations for luring me into a trap? For taking my life? How were they different tonight from when you first made your plans with Jack?" His voice is for the most part calm, curious, but with a very faint undercurrent of hurt.

It could be seen as a loaded question, a trap set to catch Will in a lie or an inconsistency, but Will can hear the pain cached within it, the part of Hannibal that cares for Will as a friend, as a partner and a lover, the part that wants Will by his side at least for the foreseeable future if not always. It's the rarely seen vulnerability, the desire to be seen and understood and, yes, loved, that had made Will agree to go with him tonight, that had broken the last fraying threads of Will's loyalty to Jack, the FBI, and his entire life before Hannibal.

Hannibal deserves the truth, and Will has no intention of keeping it from him.

"My motivations at the start were fueled by reciprocation," Will says. "You'd seen me locked away, my freedom taken from me, my credibility put into question." It's a simple way to put all the feelings Will had cultivated in prison, the anger, the betrayal, the frustration at being disbelieved by everyone. By the time he'd been released, despite knowing it had been Hannibal who'd allowed it to happen, all Will could understand was his desire for revenge.

"I was dedicated to the role," Will goes on, meeting Hannibal's eyes fully. "But, as I said before, the longer it went on, the less of what I said was exaggeration. When we spoke in your office, I was myself. The more of you I saw..." Will trails off, taking a breath. "The more I saw myself in you."

He takes another moment, his eyes on Hannibal's, watching and unafraid. He's already made his choice, and he won't change his mind. The only way he won't be on that midnight plane to Paris is if Hannibal leaves him behind, dead or alive.

"Three days ago I knew exactly what I was going to do. Two days ago I started to question my decision. Today, in your office, I had no idea who's side I would go to when the time came. Tonight, at your table, I could only see myself helping you murder Jack." He sucks a breath through his nose, and when he speaks again, his voice is low, barely a whisper.

"My motivations tonight came from wanting you, to be with you."

Hannibal doesn't begrudge Will his anger, his desire for revenge, for what he had done, but he has no regrets and will make no apologies. He had experimented on Will, this man who he knew was able to take on the mindset of others so well, and sought to bring out in him this powerful being Hannibal knew laid in wait. Indeed, Hannibal finds Will's backlash to be intriguing, invigorating, and evidence that the glorious creature that Hannibal was seeking to bring to birth was emerging into the light. His issue is with the methods Will had used, taking advantage of Hannibal's increasing emotional vulnerability, his increasing willingness to allow Will behind the veil, to see him without his person-suit. That is why it affects him when Will says he saw himself in Hannibal. At the words he draws a breath, a minimal reaction that might go unnoticed by a casual observer, but not here, now, so close to Will, the man who truly knows him in a way that no on else alive does.

Indeed, in the dark Hannibal's mind smooths and shapes the parts of Will that are indistinct, creating a being not Will and not Hannibal, but both, more than both, a whole far more than the sum of its parts. Together the two of them are a force to be reckoned with, a dark god of destruction. Paris, perhaps all of Europe, will tremble before them.

"Our paths can be unclear," he answers, his own voice almost a whisper. "What we truly desire might not be apparent even to ourselves until time and circumstance make them so. My motivations have been to see you, truly see the being at the heart of you, and to have you truly see yourself as well. To allow the whole world that glimpse of your soul. But when my path became clear, I found that I wanted to be seen by you as well. That we are meant to know one another. That our fates are now and ever shall be inextricably linked."

Will hears Hannibal's intake of breath like a tree falling in the woods, his visual emotional response a monumental thing and rare to behold. It was even more intense and meaningful that the sound Hannibal had made an hour and a half ago when he'd taken Will and come roughly inside him, the emotion related deeper and more vulnerable than desire, and it made Will's chest ache, the urge to lean across the center of the car and kiss Hannibal extremely strong.

He doesn't do it, not right away, because Hannibal has a look in his eyes that says he's about to speak, and Will wants to hear everything and anything Hannibal has to say.

Will's sure that Hannibal doesn't use the word desire lightly, and fate either. Just as Will had found himself falling into Hannibal, Hannibal had lost himself in the space between them as well, his need for them to be part of each other as strong as the one to see Will embrace his true nature. They were just alike, their uniqueness not so much mirrored as two halves of a whole. They were one now, and separating them, if it was even possible, would be more than painful, impossible to survive unscathed.

"I want to know you," Will says, his voice shaking in its sincerity. "In every way. And I want you to know me, too. All of me." He takes a breath, exhaling it hotly, unable to deny himself any longer. He leans into Hannibal's seat and finds Hannibal's lips, the kiss hard and wet but not lingering, Will breaking it only seconds after it began, sitting back in his own seat with a broken breath.

Will's words make Hannibal ache, a bittersweet sensation he is unfamiliar with, of love requited. He can imagine one of those possibilities he had in mind if this evening's conversation at his table had taken a different turn, if Will had declined the offer (however shrouded) of redemption. He can imagine standing over a bleeding Will, watching the man he loves as his life ebbs away, and letting bitter words of love unrequited fall from his lips. But now it's Will's words that are a balm to Hannibal's raw, exposed heart. And when Will's lips meet his Hannibal draws another breath, and lifts a hand to touch Will's cheek as he kisses him back. When Will withdrew Hannibal was smiling quietly, gazing at his friend and lover for a long moment.

Then he turns away, unbuckles his seat belt and gets out of the car. He tucks his hands into his pockets and strides to Will's house, climbs the stairs to his porch and waits for Will to join him.

Hannibal gets out of Will's car, leaving Will behind, his own feelings whirling around him, Hannibal's smile, the warmth of his kiss, of his touch on Will's cheek, all of it lingering. He knows without being told that, despite all the outcomes Hannibal told Will he'd imagined, there were only two paths away from Hannibal's table tonight: loyalty and love or deception and death. And Will hadn't chosen the way he did to save his life.

Unbuckling his own seatbelt, Will meets Hannibal on his porch, gives him a bare glance before he moves to unlock the door, pushing inside and trusting that Hannibal will follow him. Will's dogs rush immediately to greet him, tails wagging, one of them letting out an occasional bark, two of the smaller ones jumping up against his legs. Only Winston stands back, seemingly eyeing Hannibal as if he knows, not that Hannibal's a killer, but that Hannibal is taking Will away.

Will kneels, reaching around and rubbing furry backs and patting flanks, not ducking away from the licks across his face. "I know, I know," he tells the dogs softly, making sure to touch each one, give them attention in turn, his goodbye. He doesn't have time to cook for them, like usually would, so he stands and goes into his kitchen, taking raw meat out of the refrigerator, cutting it quickly into pieces on the cutting board by the sink.

He stops, when he's done, looking at the redness of the meat, the roughness of the chunks, and he sees the future. He swallows around a thickness in his throat that isn't fear; it's something thrilling, something that steals the breath right from Will's lungs.

Taking the cutting board to the other room, he drops bits of meat into half a dozen metal bowls, dividing it, the dogs crowding around, gulping the raw flesh down. It's like a perfect, poetic metaphor, and Will raises his eyes to find Hannibal watching, not the dogs but Will's face, seeing, understanding.

"Give me two minutes to pack a bag," Will says, setting the cutting board on his desk and moving to get a sturdy duffle bag from underneath his bed.

Hannibal watches Will with his dogs, smiling at his lover's outpouring of affection. He's always found it interesting that Will, who has such difficulty with connecting with human beings, has such an easy relationship with his rescued strays. Of course, with dogs there's no pretense, no facade, nothing to interpret. But at a deeper level the dogs represent the bestial urge, not buried or hidden but in a continuum of being. The dogs jumping around Will, licking his face, wagging their tails, are the same dogs who fought over scraps of Mason Verger's face. They will eat the food that Will cooks. And they will eat the bloody raw chunks he is now putting in their bowls for them to jostle over. When Will looks up Hannibal smiles. He nods to Will's question.

"We should get a message to Dr. Bloom so that she knows to come care for the dogs." He sits in one of the chairs and holds out a hand to the nearest dog, palm down to let it sniff before petting it, scratching it behind the ears.

Will nods, and he notices that Hannibal hasn't called her Alana since he used her name when he asked Will to run away with him tonight, and he wonders if it's indicative of how little he cares for her now, how he doesn't have to bother to pretend anymore, for Will's benefit, that he ever wanted anything from her other than to use her as a pawn. Will doesn't respond immediately, goes to his dresser and pulls out some clothes, two pairs of pants, four undershirts, for pairs of boxers, four pairs of socks. He tucks them into the duffel and goes to his small closet, taking out two plaid button up shirts, a heavy, cable-knit pullover, and a blazer. He doesn't bother with any of his ties, just takes the shirts and the outerwear to the bed and folds them quickly, placing them in the bag as well.

He leaves Hannibal at the desk, going into his bathroom and putting his toiletries together quickly, carrying the little bag back out and adding it to the duffle, zipping it shut. He doesn't take any of things, no nicknacks, no photos, nothing. He doesn't have anything here, besides his dogs, that he needs or will miss.

"Should I call her office?" Will suggests, picking up the conversation like there hadn't been five minutes since the last time Hannibal spoke. "Leave a message for her to find in the morning?"

Hannibal has been referring to Alana by her formal title to create a sense of distance, of sterility. He's well aware that his dalliance with her will be an uncomfortable subject, one that is likely to come up eventually, and he would like to delay that while they are in this first flush of their evolved relationship. In truth, Hannibal has always been fond of Alana. Surely his feelings for her are not nearly as deep as those he has for Will, but his affection is not entirely an act, even though he was using her for his own purposes. He keeps her blind to protect himself, but also to protect her. He would prefer not to come calling on her if it can be avoided, and if it came to a crossroads, he would offer her a path of redemption, just as he had offered Will. The difference would be that her path would be to walk away.

He watches Will pack, appreciating the simplicity. As much as Hannibal appreciates fashion, he finds a certain elegance in Will's understated, utilitarian sense of style. While he can imagine Will in a three piece suit and a trinitarian-knot tie, it's an image that he doesn't wish to force upon his friend.

When Will speaks, Hannibal falls right back into the conversation as well. "That should be sufficient. What will you tell her?" He's very curious how much truth Will would reveal.

Will contemplates Hannibal's question for a moment, knowing he wants to say something that will tell Alana what he's done, not where he's gone but who he's gone with, and that he won't be coming back. But he doesn't plan to offer any apologies or explanations, doesn't have any interest in wishing her farewell. She'd had a choice when he'd been in jail, the opportunity to trust him, to believe him, but she hadn't. If she'd been blinded by her feelings or her desires, he didn't know; all he was certain of was that, ultimately, she'd chosen Hannibal over him. And now he was doing the same.

He doesn't tell Hannibal what he's going to say, only goes to the phone on his desk, standing close enough to where Hannibal is seated that his knee brushes Hannibal's bent one as he picks up the receiver, leans to dial Alana's office number. It rings six times, clicks over, and her outgoing message plays, instructing him to leave a message.

"It's over," he says once the tone plays. "Pandora's box has been opened, there's no turning back. Don't try to look for us, don't try to find us, don't think about us anymore. Walk away, Alana. It will save your life."

He replaces the receiver in the cradle then, and while he doesn't have any strong emotions about Alana, no regrets or fears tied up in her, no lingering desires, there's a finality of it that causes him to pause, exhaling a long, calming breath.

Hannibal finds it interesting that Will has essentially offered Alana the same choice that he would have: walk away, stay blind, stay alive. He is of course well aware of Will's (former) affections for Alana. It was one of the dynamics Hannibal played with when he seduced the doctor, to further isolate Will, further separate him from the support system that surrounded Jack Crawford's sway. There's satisfaction in how Will has essentially severed whatever relationship may have remained, with no explanation nor apology. It is likewise satisfying that while he leaves a message for Alana (however dismissive), there is no such message for Jack Crawford himself, or at least not one aside from the clear message left in Hannibal's home and on Hannibal's bed, that would be clear for all to see, likely in the morning when Will's message to Alana triggers an investigation. Of course, they will be in Paris by then, safe for a while from the reaches of those who would take their freedom.

Hannibal rises and curls a hand around Will's shoulder, giving it a firm squeeze. "Are you ready?"

Will takes a breath, looking over the interior of his little house, his dogs scattered through the room, some laying in their beds, one at his feet, another, Winston, standing expectantly by the door. Some people say that animals sense things that humans cannot, that they understand things on a level beyond body language and vocal communication. Will has always had a tendency to believe that, which is why he's almost always felt more comfortable with dogs for companions than people. There's no way to lie to a dog, no way for a person to hide their true nature. Will's dogs trust Hannibal, which might be a strike against that notion, but what does a dog care about the life of a human being they don't know? Will's dogs know that Hannibal won't harm them, and that Hannibal won't harm Will, and so, as far as they're concerned, he doesn't pose a threat.

The notion is comforting; Will himself has come to trust that Hannibal won't kill him, at least not anytime soon, but having tacit confirmation from his abstract family only further eases Will's mind.

The dogs also know that Will's leaving. Most of them seem to understand that Will won't be leaving them without someone to care for them, but Winston in particular seems skeptical. Will wishes, of all of them, he could take Winston with him to the new life on which he's embarking with Hannibal. He knows it's impossible, and that's the only thing that makes him regret having to leave.

"I'm ready," Will finally says after he reconciles those feelings, grateful to have Hannibal's physical support in that moment. He reaches up and touches Hannibal's hand on his shoulder briefly before he disengages, going to the bed to pick up his bag. He doesn't pet any of the dogs as he walks to the door, having already said his goodbyes, and he locks up behind them, knowing Alana has a key and not wanting to leave the dogs vulnerable if it takes her a day or two to retrieve them.

Hannibal prefers not to cause harm to innocent lives without purpose, so he might object to leaving the dogs locked inside were he not certain that Jack will visit Wolf Trap tomorrow in search of his fugitive profiler, and Alana will care for the dogs from that point on. He reaches down and pets Winston once on the head as he passes by, and then goes to the car as Will locks up, opening the door to the backseat so Will can put his bag in before climbing into the passenger seat.

He directs Will to drive into Baltimore and park on a side street with on-street parking. Then together they walk a couple blocks before Hannibal pulls a burner phone and calls for a cab to pick them up on the corner.

As they stand waiting for the taxi, their breath curling into the cold air, Hannibal turns to Will.

"Have you ever been to Europe?"

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Everything is back to being pragmatic and succinct once they leave Will's house, and Will appreciates both that and Hannibal's meticulous direction as they drive back into Baltimore, not requiring Will to speak. Hannibal must know that Will is coming to terms with leaving the few small parts of his life that made him feel secure behind, his small, safe farmhouse, his collection of strays. Will doesn't regret his decision to run away with Hannibal even a fraction, and he's never been encumbered by sentiment, but he hadn't been prepared to leave everything behind when he'd arrived at Hannibal's hours ago, and he needs a few minutes to process the new direction and let it all go.

The evening is cool, a cold front rolling in, and Will thinks there will be rain tomorrow, though he and Hannibal obviously won't be there to see it. It's a strange notion, but Will's looking forward now, the idea of being in Paris next time they go to bed making the last of his lingering connections to Virginia falling away.

"I haven't," Will answers Hannibal's question, and it seems unfathomable that a worldly man like Hannibal Lecter should want to take up with someone who only left his home when he was directed by his job to do so. "I always felt like there'd be a time when I'd get the chance," he adds, sparing a glance in Hannibal's direction. "It appears that time is now," he says, offering an expression very near a smile.

Hannibal enjoys cool evenings. Even in the warmest of weather he wears three piece suits, bearing the discomfort with his usual effortless grace. When it's this cool, however, he is comfortable, and can even add a long wool coat and gloves to his look. He can smell the imminent rain above the baseline of urban Baltimore, the ozone stealthily increasing, the air becoming pregnant with moisture. Every place has its own unique scent, and Hannibal has that sensory dimension in his mind palace. Someday he will be able to close his eyes and remember this moment, remember the scent of Baltimore, the scent of rain, the scent of Will, his usual bouquet with undercurrents of the sweat and semen of sex. His anticipation of Paris came with its own scents, of the city, of the people, and of Will, the scent of sex fresh and strong and mixed with the headiness of arousal.

Hannibal answers Will's near smile with an easy one of his own. "It would appear that now is the time for a great many things," he muses aloud. There are so many things he wants to show Will, that he wants his lover to experience. The glorious freedom of his true nature and the beauty of darkness, violence, and death, is but one. Fine food, rough and violent sex, and the ancient yet vibrant cities of Europe are all on the very close horizon.

There are many meanings and a lot of promise in Hannibal's smile, in the words he carefully says in reply. Will is already starting to feel the itch of impatience now that they've gotten this far, secure in the knowledge that the few important loose ends will be tied up in the next couple of days. His mind is already hours and miles ahead, anxious to learn what Hannibal has waiting for them on the other side. He knows there will be lodging ready, and at least a few days spent laying low to be sure that their scent has been scattered well enough that Jack's bloodhounds won't be able to track them down.

Hannibal has done everything he can to ensure their departure is as invisible as possible, but there are, of course, factors beyond his control. They'll buy their plane tickets with the cash in Hannibal's folder, but that in of itself will be unusual, which means they need to be otherwise as unmemorable as they can. Which means, at least until they're safely on the airplane, they'll need to stringently avoid physical contact, or any telling topics of conversation.

Will's mind is swirling with possibilities, thoughts about architecture and public transportation, of markets and cafes, of the ways Hannibal might indoctrinate Will into his darker rituals, how they'll engage in them together. And of course this newest facet of their partnership, the physical desire that Will has felt burning just under the surface of his skin since they crossed the threshold into Hannibal's bedroom hours ago. There are so many new pleasures in which they'll partake together, but the one most insistent in Will's mind is the basest of them all.

"Tell me about where we'll be staying in Paris," Will says, needing something concrete to occupy his mind lest his imagination get the better of him. His body has already begun reacting in sympathy to his cursory thoughts; anything more detailed will only aggravate the situation to the point of being outwardly noticeable.

Having to not touch Will, to not give in to the deep urge to tear off his clothes and have him right here and now, is delicious torture. For the moment denial is sweet, and Hannibal is anticipating a million little ways it will become all the more painful and all the sweeter. Sitting next to each other, so close, in the taxi, on the airplane, on transport in Paris. They will likely sleep on the plane, and even the idea of Will simply resting his head on Hannibal's shoulder causes a small flush of frustrated desire. Hannibal is enjoying every moment, while also knowing that this pleasure will be far, far exceeded once they have reached Paris and can have their ways with each other.

Will's question elicits a wistful smile from Hannibal. "I have a top floor flat in la rive droite, a mere three blocks from the Louvre. It's spacious for a Parisian apartment. It has been in my possession for some time, even though it has been years since I've last visited. The furnishings are sparse for the moment, but that will give us the opportunity to purchase furniture together. Of course we'll also have to stock the pantry, purchase china and silverware...we'll have plenty to keep us busy for the first week."

He lifts an eyebrow in silent recognition of what they both know they will be doing the moment the door closes behind them.

The idea of shopping for furniture and china gives Will momentary pause, not because he thinks Hannibal is brushing off their obvious mutual desires but because of the very clear (and likely intentional) parallel the concept makes. Furnishing a home, buying dishes and flatware, is something a new married couple might do together. This escape, the two of them running off to Europe side by side, is very indicative of an elopement. When they arrive in Paris, they will start their new lives together as, essentially, newlyweds, with all the associated benefits.

Hannibal's raised eyebrow is all Will needs to see to know that their first act upon crossing the threshold will, in fact, be a consummation of their union, and in exactly the same fashion they would if they were legally bound in matrimony.

It makes Will think that Hannibal truly sees their future in that light, that their partnership is founded on many things: friendship, understanding, desire, and love. And, though striving for discretion, they will appear as companions and lovers to anyone who might pay close enough attention, and it causes a strange hope to surface in Will, a burgeoning yearning to someday be presented to the world as Hannibal's husband. He doesn't imagine they'll ever celebrate actual nuptuals, but the idea of them both wearing wedding bands has a appeal that Will can't deny.

"I can't say I'm not looking forward to some of those impending errands," Will remarks, and he takes a small step sideways into Hannibal's direction, something that looks like an easy shifting of body weight, but he's close enough now to brush his fingers over the back of Hannbai's hand where it hangs at his side, He wants to touch more, to drive Hannibal back into the shadows and feel him, press their bodies together. The further they get into their journey the more Will craves contact, the harder the lust for Hannibal is to contain. He already knows he'll be aching the entire flight, at least as long as he's awake, that by the time they arrive in Hannibal's exquisite, Parisian apartment Will won't have an ounce of patience left.

He imagines their first time in France will be desperate and messy, mostly still dressed and crude, rutting bodies and biting kisses culminating in their collapse in the middle of the floor, sticky and panting. Will shivers at the thought and swallows hard, both anxious for the taxi to arrive and hoping it's delayed a little longer, allowing them a few more precious moments alone.

If Will shared his observations about the parallels with marriage, Hannibal would be taken aback. He has never thought of marriage as anything but a facade. After all, one of his contingency plans had been to bring Bedelia with him in Will's place, to play the role of her husband, and her of his wife, even though their true relationship bore no resemblance to marriage. There is some degree of satisfaction in the notion of a mutual promise, a mutual dedication, but at the moment marriage is still just a show, a shadow play. They will publicly be companions and lovers because they are in private companions and lovers, not as a show. Declaring himself "married" to Will, or even just wearing wedding bands, doesn't really cross his mind. Perhaps in the future he will come to realize that it is a natural extension of what he and Will have, the friendship, desire, loyalty and love, but it will surprise him, just as this true friendship surprised him, just as this true love, both likewise sinking past the mere outward appearance.

For the moment, though, Hannibal's desires to shop for these things together stem from his desire to share the finer things with his friend, to get a sense of Will's taste and coax it gently in more refined directions. He wants Will to appreciate the particular shade of blue on a particular set of china, to find a measure of joy in the swoop and curl of the wood of a baroque style chaise lounge. These motivations are entirely internal, entirely speaking to the reality of their relationship rather than to any metaphysical classification.

When Will's fingers brush against his hand Hannibal glances down for a moment, a faint smile on his face. He looks up again and moves his own fingers slightly to brush against Will's in return. The contact isn't relief from his torment; quite the opposite. It makes him ache all the more to drag (or be dragged by) Will into an alley and shove him to a wall, or be shoved to a wall, and make frantic, furtive love to each other, penetrative or no, perhaps even without removing their clothing save for unbuttoning and unzipping their trousers. It would be messy and hard to hide when the taxi did come, when they got to the airport, clothes stained, the scent of sex detectable by anyone. It would be a very, very bad idea.

But that doesn't mean Hannibal craves it any less. He just pushes the craving forward, letting their first encounter in the flat in Paris carry more and more weight. They will abandon everything but their long-denied lust and rut until they climax, probably more than once, until there is no strength left in their bodies, until they have fucked each other weak and senseless and sated.

The idea makes Hannibal's smile deepen.

Edited (Gah, tenses!) 2016-02-17 20:22 (UTC)

The return touch sends a twist of desire up Will's spine that has him arching minutely in sympathy, his mouth going dry. It's almost not a touch, the barest graze of fingers on fingers, but there are so many nerve endings, and the meaning is so entirely clear, that it makes heat pool in Will's groin and spread through Will's chest. He has a half formed thought about calling to delay the taxi, taking those precious extra minutes and learning what it feels like to have Hannibal's cock in his mouth or just find something solid and press Hannibal's back to it, kiss him until they're both breathless and rumpled. But the timeline they're on is tight as it is, and even a ten minute delay might find them missing their flight. As appealing as that might be, forced to stay in a hotel until the morning, there's too much in motion already behind them; an extra night in Baltimore would almost certainly mean their capture.

Will's heart is pounding hard enough that he can feel it in his wrists, his throat, between his legs, and while he knows where the lines are at the moment (and won't cross them), he can't stop himself wanting. He takes a breath and looks in Hannibal's direction, knowing Hannibal can see right through him, knows he's half hard in his pants and remembering what it felt like to have Hannibal moving inside him. Even just the thought makes Will's asshole clench, and he can feel the dampness there, Hannibal's come still slowly leaking from him.

"How long is the flight to Paris?" he asks, not bothering to clear the huskiness out of his voice or mask the desire in his eyes.

Hannibal looks at him, and sees everything. He sees wide pupils, flushed cheeks, red lips parted in quick breath, neck twitching with quick pulse. He sees his lover's face contorting in pleasure, in pain, in agony and ecstasy, in transcendence. He sees his lover on his knees as Hannibal thrusts his cock into his mouth, on his hands and knees as Hannibal again fucks him from behind, and on his back as Hannibal fucks him face to face, Will's legs up and pressed back to his chest. He sees his lover spread-eagled, or bound with silk ropes in intricate knots, or trussed like a pig ready to be slaughtered while Hannibal holds a knife. And he sees Will's face as he thrusts his cock in Hannibal's mouth, as he takes Hannibal roughly from behind or face to face, as he binds Hannibal and tortures him into such sweet, sweet ecstasy. He sees all of it right there in the face of the man he loves, and it is glorious. He wants so badly to cancel the taxi and figure out some way they can just do it all now, now.

But they can't. They won't.

"A little over nine hours," he answers, his voice smooth as always, but his own wide pupils, flushed cheeks,and parted lips telling their own truth.

Will has avoided prolong eye contact all his life. He tells people it's because he finds eyes distracting, and he does, but one of those distractions is being able to read a person's true feelings. It can be extremely useful when trying to determine if someone is being deceptive or honest, but when he's not profiling, when he isn't working, looking in someone's eyes can derail him, confuse him, or affect his perceptions of that person. It's what got him tangled up with Alana, lost in feelings that didn't do anything but muddy the waters, what started to make Will loathe to trust Jack, the closer he got to Hannibal.

Hannibal's eyes are unlike anyone else's. Will isn't sure how he learned to do it, but Hannibal knows how to make his eyes shallow, like staring at glass, or worse, into a mirror. He can make a person think of feel whatever he wants without them even knowing he's doing it. He's done this to Will many times, twisted up Will's feelings about him, hiding behind a mask. But that veil fell away awhile ago, when Hannibal started to trust Will, to let him see beneath the person suit. It wasn't until the first time Will looked into Hannibal's eyes and saw depth that he realized he'd been seeing a false image until that moment, and he started to see when the blinders snapped in place, when they were around Jack or Alana, any time they weren't alone.

In Hannibal's eyes now Will see's a reflection again, but it's not because there's anything there between them. It's because Hannibal wants the exact same things Will does, both of them suffering quietly in the agony of barely contained desire. Hannibal's face is as open and earnest as it was when they were laying side by side in Hannibal's bed, postcoital, and Will memorizes the every variance in his features, his blown pupils, the dilated veins that cause his face to color just enough that Will can see it, his lips parted to give Will a glimpse of his teeth. Will aches to kiss him more than anything else in this moment, a thank you for allowing Will to see Hannibal's pure, unmasked hunger for him.

Will's brain does the math quickly, ninety minutes until the plane is scheduled to depart, nine hours in the air, customs on the other end, transportation to Hannibal's flat, then a round up for unknown delays, and he comes up with thirteen hours. It will be late once they're at cruising altitude, and Will hopes he'll sleep, at least some, because once they're on the ground in France, sleep is the last thing he wants to spend his time on.

Will hears the distant sound of tires on pavement, the taxi en route, and he inhales sharply through his nose, turning to Hannibal and lunging into him, stealing a hard, hot kiss from his lips. It's a whim, and a risky one, but he's back in place before the beams of the cab's headlights reach the asphalt on the street in front of them.

"To tide us over until Paris," Will says as the taxi rolls to a stop before them.

Hannibal sees it coming just a fraction of a second before Will lunges, so he is able after another fraction of a second to kiss Will back. Time seems to slow as he absorbs the heat and hunger of Will's lips, this last bit of passionate contact, before Will has to pull away. With a smile on his face he shifts away from Will, putting some distance between them, not so much as a reproach for the kiss as much as an assurance that anything the taxi driver might possibly have seen is entirely negated by their positions upon his arrival and closer inspection.

The taxi driver pops the trunk and gets out to put their bags inside before Hannibal and Will slide into the back seat and they're on their way. It's dark, and the driver is thankfully not chatty, so Hannibal sits silently, gazing calmly out the window, acting as if he and Will are barely acquaintances, perhaps co-workers on their way to a conference sharing a cab for cost purposes.

Yet in the dark he slowly moves his hand closer toward Will, to slowly for it to be noticed, wondering if Will is doing the same thing without either of them looking.

It's late, quiet and dark, and the driver doesn't say much beyond the usual pleasantries, has the radio off in the vehicle, so the only sound in the cabin is the road noise of the tires on the pavement and the steady hum of the engine. The vibration of it calms Will's nerves a measure, and he follows Hannibal's lead as far as their body language is concerned, sitting beside him in the backseat like they've only just met, asked to travel together by a third party. The disparity of their act and their real first meeting amuses Will, thinking about the way Hannibal had immediately started testing boundaries, commenting on Will's behavior and making assumptions about his intellect.

Even that first day Hannibal had gotten under Will's skin. Their relationship from there has taken a lot of sharp turns, and fast enough to make Will's metaphorical stomach bottom out, and while he doesn't suspect their path ahead will be straight and easy, he feels like they're running on the same track.

A quick glance in his periphery finds Hannibal's gaze is directed out the window, though Will has a feeling he's not really seeing anything, just letting his eyes go blurry while he mind works on plans for what's next. Will doesn't turn his head toward him, just continues to look toward his own window, his focus relaxed so he only sees lights bleeding into indistinct auras. He isn't sure when he did it, but he finds his hand's resting on the seat between them, his fingers spread and stretched toward Hannibal's body beside him. A second later he feels one of Hannibal's fingers bump into his ring fingertip, the notion of it being accidental washed away when, instead of pulling back, Hannibal's hand slides minutely closer.

Will swallows, takes a breath, and moves the end of his finger so it brushes over the fingernail on Hannibal's. It's a bare touch, but it's not remotely benign, the calm Will found before tilting a little at the contact. An amazing amount of intimacy can be conveyed in subtle ways, and while Will's finding it difficult to decide exactly what this means, all of the possibilities cause his heart to tumble in his chest.